A learning experience.
I played solo at the Old Hat on Saturday August 15th. It was a learning experience. I had booked the gig about 8 weeks prior and forgot about it. About a week before the show I happened to get on the Old Hat web site and saw that I was booked to play. Because we were planning to go to the cottage on that date, I thought about cancelling and trying to find someone else to fill the gig. The more I thought about it, the more it seemed like a better idea to play the gig, I didn’t want to burn my bridge with the Old Hat, namely Tom Fuller.
So I started getting my act together. Was I going to be able to play for 3 hours? No way in hell. I quickly began combing through my collection of music to find some “easy” songs to play. I managed to pull together a list of about ten songs to add to the 15 originals and 10 or so Midwestern Lull covers.
Next I created a flier. It always makes the venue happy when you hang fliers. I still think the flier I made was a pretty good one. I included my “tiny bio” which is a version of a very long bio I wrote a long time ago. If you can make yourself sound good in just a few sentences, you’re better off. Its all about short and sweet, less is more. Revise toward a “snap-shot” type of biography. What credentials you have, what you sound like, and what other people think of you. It’s nice to have the “tiny bio”. Its almost like having a little letter of recommendation.
The night before the show I crossed out some of the songs on the list. There were to many songs that I felt I wouldn’t be able to play with confidence. Looking back now, I could have crossed out more. Some song just don’t fit with the other songs on the list, some were bad song choices for my voice.
I was really nervous the day of the show. I had an upset stomach for most of the day. When I got to the Old Hat I started setting up a bunch of guitars thinking I would play them on various songs. It didn’t work out that way. I ended up wasting time and energy by setting all that stuff up. I had a hard enough time getting the PA to sound good. Even by the end of the night I still was not convinced that it sounded good. I had trouble hearing myself at times.
Finally it was show time. I was so nervous that I just blocked out everything else. I didn’t acknowledge the audience- bad mistake. I felt like I was shaking so bad I couldn’t play the chords. When I looked out into the crowd, they were looking at me like they were watching me die. I felt like I was dying. I was sweating bullets, my glasses were slipping down my nose. I couldn’t snap out of it. Usually when I play with the band I have a few drinks before we go on. I didn’t drink anything before this show. I was hoping to put on a good show without the alcohol- bad mistake #2. By the third set I had consumed at least 1 glass of wine. If you are familiar with Old Hat wine, you know its potent stuff. So my final set went great. I played my “best-of” material. There were a few people still at the bar and about 10 family and friends down in front. People were singing along, bobbing their heads.
The staff at the Old Hat said that they had enjoyed my show. “Really?” I thought. The first two sets were awful in my eyes. They said they were going to recommend to Tom Fuller he invite me back. I hope they do have me back. Next time I’ll get someone to open for me so I don’t have to fill 3 hours. I did manage to pull off three, forty minute sets and got paid accordingly. Last night I pulled out my set list from that night and paired it down to about 23 songs, which is plenty for now. Also, next time, I’ll be bringing one guitar and perhaps the banjo. No more over doing it. Less is more after all.
I think I learned a lot from this gig. What to do…what to do more of…what not to do…what to do less of.
I need to write some new tunes, get some new covers together and start playing in front of crowds more often. I think I’ll do just fine.

Liberty St.

One morning in May of 1997 I awoke to the phone ringing off the hook. It was Mark calling-"Hey, I found a place for us to live!" I hadnt recalled our conversation about even living together, let alone me moving out of my parents house. I was just getting use to my bedroom again and three square meals a day. But that was Mark for you. He always had some new project to work on and usually they required insane amounts of time and effort. He said that aunt Irene was sick and that she had to move in with his aunt Erica. They made a deal that if we cleaned the house out and painted inside, we could live there rent free. He didnt even give me time to think twice about it. He picked me up 20 minutes later and we were off to 114 Liberty street to look at the house.After Grandma T. died, aunt Irene had become a total recluse. She developed a severe Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and started collecting anything she could get her hands on. I pictured the inside of the house the way it was the last time I had been there. Spotless and well kept. But when grandma died, the house keeper hit the road and Irene was on her own. One day she just stopped cleaning, or maybe she never started. We walked up the driveway to the front steps. All of the memories were coming back to me about playing music in the basement and just the smell outside the house made me think of grandma T. But when we entered the house, all of that was quickly erased. I couldnt believe my eyes. Irene had filled the entire house from wall to wall, floor to ceiling with random stuff. Junk mostly, and garbage.There were trails leading from the kitchen to the bathroom to a space on the couch big enough for one person to sit on. There were ash trays overflowing with cigarette butts, dirty tissues thrown about. Stacks of news papers and magazines. Piles of dirty laundry. Small plastic shopping bags full of miscellaneous items. Empty cans of cat food. Stacks of old phone books. A huge box of cheap greeting cards. Old video tapes and beta tapes. Paperback books and records that looked like they had been through a flood. Appliances, broken VCRs , broken stereo equipment. Bags full of empty soda cans. Old toys, sports equipment and board games galore. Tin cans full of nails, nuts and bolts and auto parts. Dead flashlights. Broken furniture. You name it, it was probably in that house. We opened the door to one bedrooms and the entire room was packed with clothes. Packed solid, right up to the door so that when we opened it, the clothes became a wall flush with the door frame. When we emptied out the clothes we discovered a smell coming from one of the bedrooms that was surely something dead. A squirrel had somehow found his way into the house and made a home in the dresser, where it perished.Upon investigating the kitchen we found a box of cereal on top of the refrigerator that had been there since we were 12 years old, and discovered a set of Christmas lights...in the microwave. Mark was ready to start cleaning the place out. He didnt realize that this was going to become a full time job.We started out the next day filling garbage bags full of junk. But the bags were getting expensive and it became impractical. We made separate piles of miscellaneous items that we called “bins“. We had a bin for wicker baskets and one for purses. It took up the entire living room...a bin for shoes and one for telephones. We emptied one room into another, getting nowhere fast. Goodwill received huge donations of stuff during the first week. But they too were running out of storage room, and turned us away. Marks dad ended up renting a huge dumpster that took up almost the entire drive way. We just through everything out from that point on. Stuff that people could have used. We entertained the idea of a yard sale, but that would require twice as much time organizing, and pricing items. We also thought maybe we would just let people come and take what they wanted, but we didnt want anyone taking something that wasnt intended to go. We worked day and night. There was no point in getting real jobs. We figured that would just slow us down and living rent free would make up for not having jobs. And it did for a while. It took us the entire month of June, working 12 hours a day or more, just to get the house emptied out. To this day I have not worked so hard in my life. During the time we had been getting the house ready to move in we were listening to a lot of oldies on the radio. On the day we started painting, I bought the new album Being There by a band I had never heard of called Wilco. I became obsessed with the CD and it was a huge influence. I had been writing little bits and pieces of songs and music since I returned from Ohio. I was still making up stuff that sounded somewhere in between the Beatles, punk ock, and Americana although I still wasnt sure what that meant exactly. Mark and I started coming up with ideas one night to record a full length album.. When we got settled into the house, we recruited our old friend Dana Owens to play bass, called the band Boy Wonder, and started recording in earnest. Using two four-track recorders and a computer would allow us to record and edit onto tape and then add infinite overdubs. We turned the house into a makeshift studio and lived around the equipment, often times moving a cymbal stand out of the way to watch television. Once again we were pulling all-nighters doing take after take, drinking caffeine, and going to bed at sun rise, all summer long. We had friends over round the clock. Jeremy Golembiewski, Paul and Matt Toliusis, Isaac Rzonca, Dan Anderer, Juanita Davis, Becky , Laura, Joe Burke, Joe Diprima, and Brad Winkleman. Most of the time they would just sit there and watch us make music. Sometimes they would get in on the recording process, pushing the record button on the machine, or contributing to a clap track. Mark and I took turns playing guitar, bass and drums. We shared one microphone to sing harmonies and would spend hours just perfecting one backing vocal track. It was like someone had turned on the faucet, and the creativity just poured out. In addition to the songs, we made hours of sound effects recordings, including the sound of our cat Sammie and the music box that went on forever and ever (just when you thought it was running outit would start playing again slower and slower). We ended up recording lots of conversations- and we talked about everything, not just the songs -absolutely everything. Dana didnt stick around to work on the recordings to often, he usually just played his bass parts and left. He didnt really want to have anything more to do with it than that. One night Joe was there and during one of our breaks he hypnotized us. We ended up at Big Boy and Joe had me screaming at the top of my lungs for a refill.We recorded Falling Feeling, two versions of Massieville Rd. Song, The No Incident, Spinning Pennies, Thats What I Know, Starshine, My Philosophy, and a version of the Beatles tune Tomorrow Never Knows. I also made some demos of a song called Stupid Promise. We ended up mixing four of the songs and making them into a demo tape which we sold at a couple of shows. We mostly gave the tapes away. But we did the whole project ourselves and to me thats what mattered most. We did a lot of bonding during that time. It was a magical summer. I loved living in that house and making those recordings.
It was one of the best times of my life.

4th of july weekend 2009

what a whurl-wind. went from one thing right to the next. didnt have much time to even think. andy and laurel tied the knot on saturday on the beach in south haven. missed the ceremony...saw the kiss and watched everyone applaud from the hill. got t0 do some busking on sunday. played in south haven all day. had someone come up and start taking video of me while i was playing. got a chance to play with michael the fiddler for a few tunes. later, a couple of dudes carrying a huge cooler told me that they would pay me to play a song by "wings". they were suprised when i busted out "band on the run". andy and laurel were "honeymooning" they came down to where i was playing and i played a few tunes for them. andy had on a really cool hat that i was super jealous of. i offered to buy it off him, but it wasnt for sale. andy seems like he is really happy, and im glad. i have always worried about him.
kids are crying...its bedtime.

massieville rd song.

Massieville Rd. Song is a song i wrote about 12 or so years ago. its really the first song i was proud of. all of the songs i had written up until that point were pointless and didnt make any sense. i hadnt figured out songwriting until i wrote Massieville Rd. Song. the song was written after the death of a friend, the end of a relationship, the end of two bands i was in, and i was leaving home for the first time. i started writing the song in my bedroom at home, when i still lived with my parents. i wrote down the verses in a notebook, recorded them on my 4 track and left it at that. 4 months later, after so many things had happend and so many things had changed, the chorus just came to me. it just popped into my head, like it was a wall or something and i just ran right into it. it was the night before a recording session was to begin and i didnt have anything in mind to even record. when i started working on the song again, it just all fit together and i recorded it the next day with my room mates. they helped me make adjustments to the lyrics and showed me how to sing it to make it more dramatic. their advice hit the spot. we recorded the song in 4 takes. at the end of the session, someone was going to label the tape box and asked me what the song was called. " i dont know" i shrugged, "how bout, Massieville Rd. Song."
Massieville Rd. was the road that we lived on then. it was such a special song, i didnt want to give it a title that would cheapen the song. like "open your eyes" or, "youre dreamin". the name stuck. the recording on the other hand, got lost.
ive just recently started playing the song again. everyone loves that song. thats the one i get the most compliments on. even though its just a song, it represents a huge chunk of my life. it was a turning point for me. i had grown into something different at that point and there was no turning back. thats what the song means to me now. i dont so much equate the lyrics with the death of a friend, a realtionship ending etc. i still think about those things when i play it though.